My Medusa Valintine

This valentines has been like most valentines for me. Filled with confusing romance hexagons and unsatisfying loose ends.
If ive learned anything this year, its DO NOT make any kind of commitments or fall in love near this date!!!!!

A string of heart brakes have occurred, one leading onto another. Two men who i was dearly in love with have had there hearts torn out by there respective women. Because of this they ended up hurting me too.

But i have one thing to say to that; This pain ends here with me. I will devour it and i will destroy it.

Some people ive fallen in love with have said there love for me is plutonic, that im more like a family member.
I think i understand that my nature is more like a sister or a mothers now.

It makes me feel really undervalued and is very crushing to my self esteem. But I guess thats a part of my role, to be the one who sees the right path at crucial junctions. (not to say that i always do, just that it will be expected of me)

But if thats something i can do, Ill take it. I will not give into the madness and misunderstandings that love trails behind its self.

Instead i will be a place where love can grow strong and safe.
To my beloveds,
Nai


Ps (her name is payne)